Soccer

So I'm extremely crushed right now. I got my MRI results back today and my ACL is completely torn. That means I have to have surgery. And I can't play soccer for 4 months. I am not looking forward to these next months. Everyday activites are no longer worth doing. Like putting on jeans, running, and walking up and down stairs... all way to painful. Oh guess when surgery is! Spring Break! To do the surgery, my docter is going to have to harvest some of my hamstring and attach (with metal) my hamstring where my ACL should be. But most of all I'm angry cause the docter last week gave me false hope. He said that I probably just had a dislocated knee and I would be able to play soccer soon. Then he cause a couple days later and was like "We think your ACL is torn, come in on Monday." These past days have been terrible. Soccer is my life and what I LOVE. Not being able to play is the most painful thing for me. I really am going to need as many prayers as possible these following months. I really really do need GOD right now. I have been stripped of who I am and He is the only one that can save me.

Fear and Future

I've been thinking a lot lately about whats going to happen to me after high school and then it hit me. I have two and a half years left. Thats it. It may seem like a long time for some but I know it will go by way to fast. I've realized that I'm not scared of what will happen to me, but who will I be with. I'm so scared of losing the friends that I have because I know how painful it is to lose a true friend. Even after my sophmore year is over, I know some of my close friends will be gone to do something with there lives. Maybe I worry to much.